Emo Tien.

For the last week, I've decided to 'pray' before I go to bed. Mind you, I am Buddhist. Nothing against the Buddhist religion but I'm just not into it. Anyway back to my story, I found that when I did say a prayer or two, I felt at peace with myself. My days were better compared to last week where I stayed up crying all night for no apparent reason. Picking at everything that is wrong with my life.

I've been moping around the house like a damn loser for the past couple of weeks. I needed a 'Stop fucking being a loser and get your shit together bitch!' wake-up call.

That made me realize so much. I need to get my shit together. I want to change some things in my life. Take more positive than negative. Last but not least, do me for once. I'm always catering to peoples' needs. But when it comes to me I just can't handle the truth and the actual reality. Wants and needs are two very different things. I need to accomplish more 'needs' than 'wants'.


To say the least, God has helped me through so much this past week.

Now I know what needs to be done, I need to make things right.

My life ain't rosy but I roll with it,
Camtien

Confessions: Camtien.

After reading Lori's post I was inspired to make 'Confessions" a reoccuring theme here on our blog.

Whether you know us personally or just a random reader...confessions will be something either personal, random, or just spur of the moments of our lives.

My confession...



The recession made me realize so much.

I appreciate what I have..what my family provides.

Even though nothing is enough for them.

or me, at that.

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What I need?



or...



Good Morning,
T.

I need to get away..

Some days I feel like packing up and leaving..there's nothing for me here..nothing to make me happy. Now that I'm 18, I have the opportunity to make that happen..and I will. Trust.

It's just fucked up when you see your family fall apart. Mom stops cooking, siblings stop talking. I can't recall the last time ANYONE in my family calling me asking me 'How are you?' not even my oldest sister who is in Bumblefuckland, only ONE person in my family calls me on a daily. Hell, no one in my family wished me a happy birthday this year besides 1 sister and a couple cousins. Sometimes, I try too hard. I try to hard to keep everything in one piece when in reality..SHIT does not happen that way.

I am just DRAINED..I need a vacayyyshun.

Montego Bay, Jamaica





I fucking WISH.


One day...this Summer my bestfriend & I are planning an end of summer vacay at a resort.

I'm still researching cuz' uhmmm last time I checked..it's a FUCKING RECESSION!


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Shouts' to RiRi who is looking BOMB nowadays!



Oh yeah..and those Christian Louboutins'?



They have a $1,095.00 price tag.

I LOVE THIS OUTFIT.




Ashley Tisdale is soo cute, I love her new look & new attitude.

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Last note...


*PAUSE* at this picture. lollollol.

Rock City has grew on me..I know nothing about them to be honest..but I love their accents and their covers!

I'm downloading their mixtape as I type, ha.
Everyone already know I'm the Queen of mixtapes.

DOWNLOAD THEIR MIXTAPE:
PUT THE FUCKIN' ALBUM OUT

I officially LOVE them.

Flashing Lights [LB] - Rock City

'And what you rocking now was my last years' shopping'

eXes & hOes,
Mixtape Tizzy

EDIT: LMAO @ DEE for putting shes from Mongolia. DEAD.

Premonitions x Bullshit.

'A premonition is an impression, often perceived as a warning, of a future event (from the Latin praemonēre, to forewarn : prae-, pre- + monēre, to warn). It bears similarities to the concept of second sight in that it frequently comes in the form of a paranormal vision or as a vivid dream.^[1]

Premonitions are sometimes attributed to the presence of supernatural or paranormal abilities such as those of the prophetess Cassandra. However, the distinction between precognition and ordinary evidence-based predictions is sometimes not made sharply. Premonition is a concept which may or may not include ordinary predictions, resulting in a bias towards supernatural explanations for the phenomenon.

There are many recorded instances of premonitions which have come true but many others may be explained by the knowledge or deduction of those who experience them.'

Lately, I've been having these weird premonitions, and it's the type where I think I do remember but I really don't. Some were bad..some were good. Hopefully it doesn't come and bite me in the ass. =x

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The Original Chris Crocker....the fucking truth.



'I can have my groupies on you in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1....it's NOTHIN'!'

haha, I remember watching his videos over and over again just to laugh.

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This is gonna be my last word on this stupid ass situation...


Don't put my name in your mouth. You don't know me..you don't know my fucking trials and tribulations nor do you know my struggles. You don't chop it up with me. IT'S ALL FUCKING MUTUAL. But that does not mean you know me enough to go ahead and talk...so don't yap like you do. End of story.

Like my girls @ L.A Bella say:


FUCK YOUR STEROTYPES

Eat it, swallow it, and DIE FUCKING SLOW while shitting it out.



How about we all act our age? Huh?

eXes and hOes,
Camtien.