For the last week, I've decided to 'pray' before I go to bed. Mind you, I am Buddhist. Nothing against the Buddhist religion but I'm just not into it. Anyway back to my story, I found that when I did say a prayer or two, I felt at peace with myself. My days were better compared to last week where I stayed up crying all night for no apparent reason. Picking at everything that is wrong with my life.
I've been moping around the house like a damn loser for the past couple of weeks. I needed a 'Stop fucking being a loser and get your shit together bitch!' wake-up call.
That made me realize so much. I need to get my shit together. I want to change some things in my life. Take more positive than negative. Last but not least, do me for once. I'm always catering to peoples' needs. But when it comes to me I just can't handle the truth and the actual reality. Wants and needs are two very different things. I need to accomplish more 'needs' than 'wants'.
To say the least, God has helped me through so much this past week.
Now I know what needs to be done, I need to make things right.
My life ain't rosy but I roll with it,
Camtien
I've been moping around the house like a damn loser for the past couple of weeks. I needed a 'Stop fucking being a loser and get your shit together bitch!' wake-up call.
That made me realize so much. I need to get my shit together. I want to change some things in my life. Take more positive than negative. Last but not least, do me for once. I'm always catering to peoples' needs. But when it comes to me I just can't handle the truth and the actual reality. Wants and needs are two very different things. I need to accomplish more 'needs' than 'wants'.
To say the least, God has helped me through so much this past week.
Now I know what needs to be done, I need to make things right.
My life ain't rosy but I roll with it,
Camtien
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